Sunday, August 8, 2010

Sorry it's belated!

Ok, so I was trying to get pictures put together and posted from the summer, but some technical complications came up, so I'm still working on getting those for you (sorry!!), but hopefully they'll come up eventually!

I was meaning to give a last, final update on the summer (what I've learned overall that I haven't already mentioned, what God's been doing, etc.) and I'm sorry it's taken me so long to get this out. Once I got home, there were things I needed to get done and what not.... It's so easy to get caught up in other things!! :) When I get my pictures up, I'll finish wrapping up my summer...

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Final Week... :(

So this will be one of my last posts...

It's so mind-boggling how quickly (and slowly) the summer has come and gone. Nearly 7 weeks slipped between my fingers, and in just several days I'll find myself looking at the Northwest from the window of an airplane on my way home. It's such a sad thought.

I really dread leaving here. I love the people so much; I had to already begin my train of goodbyes, and I was already crying. I don't know how I'll make it on Friday. And something I just realized: I actually left on this exact day last year.... weird.

Anyways, on to what I've been up to. Or rather, I should probably say, what God's been up to at youth camp :)

Youth camp was INCREDIBLY AMAZING!!!!!! Not only was it fun, wacky, crazy, with little sleep and all of the above, but God worked in some amazing ways. It was so powerful!! And what was even more awesome was that He not only moved in my life, but in all the other youth too!!! It was so mind-blowing to see everyone truly worshipping, people weeping, people praying for each other, people hugging and comforting, people just broken but healed with Christ - it was so awesome!!! And we had at least 5 new brothers and sisters in Christ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was literally speechless by how great our God is. I was so overwhelmed by His continual blessings and power and just His neverending love. And He showed me so much during my quiet times and in Isaiah - well, and especially through the messages. Not only was it life-changing, but I got to play the epic game of plunger ball again :) It was intensely intense; I got a little scraped up, but not too bad. Steph and I helped lead the 10th grade discusssion group with Cliff (KBC's youth intern - pretty much their youth pastor), and I also spoke a little in Zita's missions breakout session. Praise God the bathrooms in the A-Frame were working, so there were counselor bathrooms for us to use (our showers had a huge piece of plastic that was duck-taped, but hey, it worked well enough for me). And better yet, we were the cabin inspectors, which means yes, lots of bribes - including a song one group composed and performed for us!! It was so awesome!!

And the youth - oh, I can't say enough about them!! We got to sit in with KBC's group during church group discussions, and I was so blessed to be a part of what God is doing through them. They are so mature (in their walk and just in general), and I am so encouraged by their faith! I learned a lot from them, and I am going to miss them so much!!! They became my new youth group away from home.

There is so much I want to say, but I have so much to do!!! This is my last day at my host home (which includes internet access, phone service, and last day for a WalMart run, etc. etc.), so I have much to do before leaving for boys camp this week. And then I return home on Friday :(

While I'm happy to be seeing my family and being in my own bed and seeing my friends and all, I already miss these people so much!!!! They have been such a blessing in my life, and I have been touched by them!! I've considered moving up here, though that wouldn't be possible... for the moment ;) No, but I'm going to really miss them. And I'm glad I came back.

I'll blog again, and when I do, hopefully I'll fill in the blanks with what I've missed (and hopefully pictures too!). I need to get back to packing and such, so I'll need to end here.

Thank you so very much for all your prayers and support!!!! I have felt them these past few weeks, and I cannot thank you enough!!


"You're the center of the universe, everything was made in You, Jesus
Breath of every living thing, everyone was made for You

You hold everything together
You hold everything together

Oh Christ, be the center of our lives
Be the place we fix our eyes
Be the center of our lives..."

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Girls, girls, girls... What is there to say?

Girls camp has worn me out.

Yawning has become my new habit. I am excessively, extremely exhausted. Extremely, extremely exhausted. I cannot begin to describe how close my eyelids are to completely closing.

But anyways - yes, camp. Camp was... I don't know how to describe it. I certainly didn't have the rambunctious group of 4th graders I had last year, and while only 3 6th grade girls should seem to be a piece of cake, it was unfortunately not the easiest task. Within several hours of the beginning of camp, I was already frantically searching for one of the girls, who was late to the initial camper meeting due to ... butterfly hunting (??). Long story short, one of the girls gave us (Emma was working with me) a very difficult time, especially when it mattered most: quiet times, worship, Bible study, etc. One of the other girls was the kind who thought she did everything right, and the other girl was new to camp. It was definitely a struggle, but it was worthwhile. On Thursday, I had a really good talk with the "flawless" girl, and she broke down a bit. I was so thrilled to share Isaiah 43 with her (one of my favorite passages), and she thanked me later for encouraging her (although really it was God, not me). And then the other 2 girls prayed to accept Christ!!!!!!!! I was so ecstatic!!! Praise God!!!!!!!! i didn't have the chance to pray with them personally, but I was still so happy for them :)

There were ups and downs, but overall it was ok. We also went to a ReGeneration event last night, with amazing worship and they showed "To Save a Life". It was pretty awesome, but boy am I pooped now. Hung out with some youth today... I can't remember the rest. I think I fell asleep somewhere in there, but I'm not quite sure. As you can tell, my brain is all scattered right now... sorry about that :)

Please continue to pray for me - for strength, energy, and perseverence. I think I'm hitting that rut in the road in my trip, and I feel really weak and vulnerable right now. Please pray for guidance and, again, strength.

thank you for all your prayers and for being interested in what I've been doing this summer!! It's so reassuring and encouraging to know there are people who are supporting me and helping carry me through this trying summer :)

Youth camp is next week. While I was so excited, for some reason I feel fearful (and maybe dread) entering the week... Pray that my attitude may change, and my focus will be where it needs to be. I think that's one of my biggest struggles right now.

Ok, I need to sleep - good night :)

Friday, July 9, 2010

What a crazy week...

Again, so much to say without enough energy to say it all.

So today is a much-needed day off after not having a weekend off as usual. I was able to sleep until 9 something (which was so awesome), though I'm still tired as I sit here lazily typing.

I already mentioned a little about Airway Heights. The fireworks was amazing; it was like having front row seats in the Civil War. But we somewhat regretted it the next day, as we cleaned up all the fireworks debris in the parking lot. We were all sore the next day.

Mystery week was continually a mystery as plans kept changing, and some days we woke up going by an hour by hour schedule (or so it seemed). We left Airway Heights on Monday and returned to the Tri-Cities for the night. Issues had been escalating throughout our road trip, and this was a night when I sort of broke down from all the chaos. There have been times when I've wanted to come home, when I've thought of all the things I could have been doing this summer instead of being here - how I could have been sleeping in, hanging out with friends, getting ready for college and not worrying about all the things I needed to do before then. But then I remembered that God called me here for a reason - for what reason I'm still unsure, but I know it will come to me soon. And I am here to serve, not to be comfortable. This trip isn't about me, and I've been making it about myself - what I wanted to do, what I didn't want to do, what I didn't want to deal with... it was selfish, really. I think that may be why I'm going through certain circumstances; God wants to show me how I need to not focus on myself so much and focus on Him instead, for He'll provide me with everything I need.

Anyways, back to our schedule. So God really spoke to me during that time on Monday night, as my partners and I were struggling with some issues - and of all things, it was through our workbook we were assigned to do through the association (which I already did last year) and none of us enjoy. He really showed me how wrong my attitude and perspective was of everything going on, and He just gave me the words to say to my partners. It was incredible and quite a relief, to say the least. But there were still issues hanging in the air, and it scared me how weak I felt. But then again, when I am weak, then I am strong, as Paul wrote.

So Tuesday we were at Camp Touchet, doing - of all things - yardwork. The weedwhacker and I reunited, though this one was way heavier, and because the strap couldn't adjust to my heigth, my arms were dead by the end of the day (yes, it was for several many hours), and my legs were bruised from where the weedwhacker had leaned up against my leg.

Wednesday was off to Idaho. We were in Craigmont mostly, doing some VBS follow up in this really small town, and I found myself falling asleep when it was most inconvenient. (I'm leaving a lot of details out partially because I can't remember it all right now, and partially because I'm writing a novel already) We then were pulled over by the Pullman (I think we crossed the border about 5 times, and every time I kept missing the "welcome to idaho" sign on my camera) police, which was interesting. We arrived in Moses Lake around 11:30 that night and got to stay in a hotel!!! (yeah, so much for "suffering for Jesus"...) Because of an unresolved issue amongst us, we stayed up until a little after 2 AM, but praise God, it helped bind us closer together, and the issue was pretty much handled.

Thursday was back in Riverside, which I was really excited about. We cleaned up the playground on the rez, and then we visited houses for a survey. It was so great to see God moving through the rez, as people were open to having a Bible study!!! Only a few were hostile, but I was so grateful to see how open they were to hearing about the Gospel. It was so encouraging, and more uplifting than the responses in Idaho's follow up. We arrived back to our host home in the Tri-Cities last night.

So I know that may be a lot to swallow, but there's a basic synopsis of the week. We're pretty much catching up today, and there's a youth game night at one of the churches in the area that we're invited to. Hopefully we can go; things are still up in the air, as usual :) Also, I hear we're suppose to go ice-blocking tomorrow and the KBC youth wanted to throw a party for us!! How sweet! But we'll see.

And now for some additional lessons God has been showing me :) While weedwhacking (because there's not much to think about while you're weedwhacking), God spoke to me through my actions. How easy is it to chop down something so beautiful, after it has taken so long to grow, after much care and love has been put into it? With a rotating piece of nylon cord serving as a blade on the weedwhacker, it seemed so simple to chop down flowers and plants; so it is with our words. I haven't been so careful in what I've muttered throughout the week; it's been so easy to fall into complaining and gossip. God showed me through those plants how my words may also cut down others and how powerful they can be. I thought that was pretty cool. Also, as I picked up trash, there were times when I wanted to skim over an area where there were a lot of tiny, tiny pieces of plastic and such, since I felt it doesn't matter or no one would notice. But I remembered Colossians 3:23 - "whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men". I wasn't doing this for my supervisors or anyone else; I was serving God, and this is the attitude I had? Things have really been put into perspective for me, and though I felt ashamed of myself and I may have not enjoyed the work in particular, it was a much needed reminder of why I was here.

Please continue to pray for just everything. I think that covers everything, hahaha... But I'm just so weak and exhausted, and any prayer is greatly appreciated at this point. Thank you for all your prayers and encouragement. You don't know how much it means to me.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Mystery Week!!!

So much to say again, and it's been less than 24 hours since I last posted! Got settled in to Airway Heights, which is near Spokane. We helped a little this morning when we arrived (at Airway Heights Baptist Church) and got lunch at this really great burger place (shaped like a milk bottle). It was one of the best meals I've had here... also because I had a nice plate of salad :) Then, we did some sightseeing in Spokane! It reminds me of Chicago somewhat...it's interesting.

We saw these falls... I forgot what exactly it was called, but it was so beautiful and right in the middle of the city (not like Yosemite falls though). We also walked through River Park Center (or that general area), and we rode in a gondola! Well, it was like a combination between a ferris wheel, a tour, and a ski lift, but it was awesome. We also ran through this huge fountain (being the tourists that we were) in the square. On our drive, we were able to see surrounding areas and such. It was a nice break, since we won't be getting one this weekend like we usually would. So tomorrow we'll be busy until around 11 pm or so, but we'll get to see fireworks (and possibly get to launch some!!). Then we go to Camp Touchet to work there (where we might also meet another summer missionary who's coming to help at camps), then Idaho and Riverside... oh what a week!

I haven't even talked about my host family! The couple I'm with is so sweet (and so is their dog!), and they were actually IMB missionaries in Brazil and have worked with NAMB, too! It was so great to listen to them tonight. But I need to go. I'm really needing sleep because I was falling asleep while in the middle of a conversation - how horrible!! But I'm so blessed to have my own room to myself!! Oh goodness, there's so much more to say but not enough energy to say it all!! Sorry... I guess I'll just have to tell you some other time or something.

Anyways, please please pray for patience and strength, that I will be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry. I'm running low on fuel, and it's what happens during these times that can be most crucial as I'm serving. Please pray that I will have the right attitude as I work, and that God will continue to work in my life. I have had some low points on this trip, and it's really bringing me down (physically, spiritually, emotionally, mentally - just everything). I've been a little discouraged in some areas (while I try to not show it), and I would really, really appreciate all of your prayers right now. Also for flexibility; I know that pretty much is a lesson you learn throughout the whole summer, but this week especially (which we coined as "mystery week") is so puzzling (for a lack of better terms) because we don't know what exactly we're doing as the plans keep continually changing without us knowing.

But thank you so much for following all that I've been doing, and I'm still trying to work on getting pictures up!! Until next time...

Is this halfway?

Wow. Another week gone. Today was full of more goodbyes, and I truly enjoyed this past week and working with the kids I had the privilege of working with. Some ladies also gave us bouquets of beautiful flowers to thank us. It really made my day when a few of my kids made a thank you card for me, and they were asking if I was coming back next year... So sad.

I have to share this story one of my partners shared with me: one of her students had the hiccups, and he said something that was so cute!! He said that he thinks God is trying to show him something; he talks a lot, but when he has the hiccups, he really has to think about what he's going to say. He mentioned something about God teaching him to not talk so much - how cute is that?!

And bowling!!! Let me just say that I have fallen in love with the youth here! There were about 20 of us, and it was awesome to just hang out and have a goofy time. It was also very relaxing in between VBS's, and much needed. And we also got to stop by this 7/11 in Kennewick that is supposedly the #1 slurpee store in the world...? It was pretty awesome, and there was even a huge trophy by the cash register - a huge trophy. I didn't know such things existed for slurpees.

But on a more serious note, this week has also been as trying as it has been exciting. And it just seems to become more difficult. God's been showing me a lot lately about my poor attitude in serving, how it's not about me, but about Him. And really, that makes all the difference in perspective and how I approach my challenges. But please continue to pray for this upcoming week (which will technically start tomorrow morning... at 8. So much for being promised to sleep in, though technically that is sleeping in compared to the mornings this past week). I'm all over the place, but I know there are some things that really need God's intervention. Please pray for patience, patience, patience! And wisdom, grace, and peace. We really want this week to be good, but I think it starts with where our focus is - which should be on Christ and not ourselves and our own comfort.

There's so much i want to say but don't have the time to write it all. I can't believe my summer here is almost halfway gone! I've been here for almost 3 weeks... wow time flies. But I just found out a change in my schedule for next week, so I probably won't blog again until next weekend. Please lift my team up in prayer, and thank you so much!!

Oh and P.S. I'm working on getting a photo album posted on here... but we'll see :)

Thursday, July 1, 2010

God is good :)

So VBS has been going great at both Benton City and KBC. I'm really enjoying both, while having a full day is quite exhausting. We start the day pretty early and get back late, and not much sleep is in between. And unfortunately, there won't be a break to recuperate this weekend as usual, but I know God is watching out for me :)

I have next week's schedule!! We actually leave Saturday for Airway Heights in Spokane, and we'll be there until Monday. Then we go to Idaho (ah!) for the day on Tuesday to do VBS follow up in this small town whose name I can't remember. Wednesday we may be doing work at the association camp, Camp Touchet, where there's a lot of projects to be done before the weeks of camp. Thursday is another VBS follow up, and guess what? It's in Riverside!! But that will be a long day of driving up and back in the same day. Anyways, and Friday (so far) is our day off before our 3 weeks of camp arrive. It is a crazy week for sure. Oh, and our team is splitting again, so 4 of us will be doing what I just mentioned and the other 4 are doing VBS. It's so different with 8 partners - there's just so many of us!

I've definitely been seeing God working here. And I've been blessed in so many ways, as much as it has been very trying and challenging; I've been stretched again, and while it isn't fun, it's a great learning experience and will definitely be beneficial in the future.

And let's just talk a little about why I'm so happy today! So Stephanie and I have been joking that we're going to be the next youth ministers at KBC, and we just love the youth!! We're actually going bowling with a bunch tomorrow afternoon (between the 2 VBS's), and I'm just so excited! They're really a great group, and I'm so blessed to have made so many friends and to be a part of their lives. And today, a few of us helped a family move who we've come to know from the Riverside trip, and it was a great time. Also had a slurpee, and supposedly, the Tri-Cities is supposed to have some of the best slurpees...? Anyways, at VBS tonight - I just love my group! I'm crew leader for a small group of kids for KBC's VBS, and while my group is probably the smallest, I just love the kids I have. One of the girls is so precious - and just cracks me up! They're actually all precious - all 4 who are never all there at the same time :) And one of the boys asked me if I'll be his crew leader next year; he said he really liked having me as his leader. That just made my day!! And you know what's even cooler? I found out he's originally from Fresno, and we were born at the same hospital!! Fancy that! God just works things in amazing ways. One of my partners is also going to the same college as I am in the fall, and we're so excited to already know someone!

So the weather was quite strange today - cold in the AM, then sunny, then it started to rain. But God ended the day with a beautifully, amazing sunset (all while it was still raining!). It was so gorgeous. I just had to blog about it :)

I've been wanting to post pictures, but it hasn't been working too well. Hopefully I'll figure out some way to post some, but if not, then I'll just... well, I don't know what exactly I'll do, but we'll just see.

Please continue to pray for strength and wisdom. I've been struggling a lot lately, and I'd really appreciate anything at this point.

Thanks for all your prayers and words of encouragement. I cannot thank you enough. The power of prayer is definitely seen here, and I have definitely been growing deeper in my prayer life. Thanks and adios for now.